Thursday, January 29, 2009

Aug 27 morning....

Devom was in room with us. Nurse asked me where I wanted him; Dinesh said that we wanted him in the crib. He was in his crib bundled up and was sleeping well. But then he was tired too. He had struggled with me to come out into this world.
I was in my bed, Devom in his crib and Dinesh in his sofa-cum-bed. It was not very comfortable but he just stayed there. Devom cried at night, since his crib was next to me I gathered myself to get up and Dinesh was up too. He was just horrified why Devom was crying and if everything was ok. He told me to lie down and that he would pick him up for me. I told him to go off to sleep since he had been doing a lot of moving around that day and would have been exhausted. I took Devom into my arms and he slept. I laid him down again. A nurse came in later to give me my meds and check Devom. I had my meds. Our temps were checked. I was ok but looked like Devom was a little chilly, so they told us that they would have to move him to the nursery. He came back at around 5 AM and was sleeping well. I saw him and he looked so cute that I knew I had to get up and take pictures of him. I took a couple of his pictures and then laid down.
His Paed came in at 6 and checked him. Did a few tests…. and told us that we would be getting reports in sometime.
At 7 AM in the morning Nurses came back and announced that Devom was not doing very well and had to be moved to 5th floor (NICU). I was so upset since I hadn’t even seen him enough and they were already taking him away from me…. I had tear filled eyes. Dinesh took the charge and talked to the nurses. Another doctor came in the mean while. Dinesh talked to him and gave them the permission to move him. Kept a hand on my shoulder and told me that he’ll be back in sometime. I said ok since I did not want to cry in front of him. He already had enough going on around him…
He went down with them. I cried a lot after that….. my baby whom I could feel well inside me was out in this world and was now being taken away from me.
Dinesh came back at around 8. He consoled me saying everything is well, Devom was doing much well there, there was nothing to be scared of & that we can go together to see him. We can be with him for as long as we wanted. Atleast that helped me a little bit although I was still torn from having Devom being transferred to NICU.

Our first night with Devom....

Devom was in room with us. Nurse asked me where I wanted him; Dinesh said that we wanted him in the crib. He was in his crib bundled up and was sleeping well. But then he was tired too. He had struggled with me to come out into this world.
I was in my bed, Devom in his crib and Dinesh in his sofa-cum-bed. It was not very comfortable but he just stayed there. Devom cried at night, since his crib was next to me I gathered myself to get up and Dinesh was up too. He was just horrified why Devom was crying and if everything was ok. He told me to lie down and that he would pick him up for me. I told him to go off to sleep since he had been doing a lot of moving around that day and would have been exhausted. I took Devom into my arms and he slept. I laid him down again. A nurse came in later to give me my meds and check Devom. I had my meds. Our temps were checked. I was ok but looked like Devom was a little chilly, so they told us that they would have to move him to the nursery. He came back at around 5 AM and was sleeping well. I saw him and he looked so cute that I knew I had to get up and take pictures of him. I took a couple of his pictures and then laid down.

Aug 26, 2008 - The BIG day!

This all is very filmy....... but trust me this is true.

Aug 26 I woke up at 3:45 and was just surprised to see that my pajama was wet. I was disgusted a little bit, thinking 'I accept I am pregnant but peeing in your clothes even without realizing is not what a pregnant lady can do....'

I got up and went to the bathroom. On the way was when it struck me that my water might have broke. In the restroom I knew I had to try to control my pressure but I had already peed not in my pajamas though. I was in the bathroom for almost 15 minutes.

I came out and saw that Dinesh was up and was in living room. My heart melted thinking that he was scared for me..... but to my surprise, when I walked into the living room, he said 'why are you up? Go off to sleep. I am just watching cricket'. I did not know to laugh or cry or scream.

Then I just called up in the hospital. When Dinesh saw me with cell he was surprised and asked me whom I was calling. I told him that I think my water broke & am calling the hospital now to see what to do. I called them, explained them and they told me that my doctor will call me back shortly.

Doctor called me back and after asking a few questions told me that it looked like my water broke. She asked me to take shower, not have anything except water and come over to hospital and she would call them to let them know that I am on my way. I wanted to wait for some more time before going to hospital. Waited and then in the bathroom I realized that I had no control over myself. I was pretty sure by then that my water broke.

I panicked coz' my labor bag wasn't ready. I told Dinesh and he was sure nothing had happened and so did not want to help me. When I got onto the chair to get the bag was when he realized that I was totally adamant on preparing my bag. He got the bag down and helped me a bit in packing. I went to the bathroom to take shower and by the time I came out I saw Dinesh in bed again. He told me to go off to sleep since nothing was wrong.

I was too upset then and knew that even if he was not accompanying me I'd rather drive again myself or call 911 to take me to the hospital. I told Dinesh that I had never before asked him to go hospital at this wee hour but this time I needed to go. Reluctantly he got up to go with me to doc..... Finally we got into the car at 5:15 AM and realized that we did not even have the car seat in place.

On our way to hospital Dinesh was joking that we would be coming back in some time and would be getting ready to sleep and I was just getting irritated but did not say anything. I was scared and at one point I thought it was better if they sent me back.

We reached hospital and it was a little cold then. We went to the reception and they directed us to the fourth floor of the Methodist hospital. The nurses were already waiting for us. We were directed to the room where I changed into hospital clothes.

A nurse came into check me a half an hour later and declared that my water broke and that we were having a baby in the next 24 hours....... WOW!!! I was happy and excited and scared all at the same time.

The doctor came into see me at 7 and congratulated us..... She gave the instructions to the nurse & told me that I could not eat or drink anything till I had delivered the baby. I was so upset. They started monitoring me and then later on they started the IV's to induce me. The nurse came into ask us if we were thinking of taking epidural and both of us, even without looking at each other screamed YES.

I started felling the pains... they were coming and going. Nurse explained us how to read monitor. Dinesh was helping me & I was happy to have him by me.

At around 11 AM my dad called me up asking me where I wasas mom was constantly bugging her to call me since she could sense that something was not right with me (she always could sense if I was good or not and not just me but she could even sense how my brother n sister were feeling too). He asked me if I was in office & I said no, he asked me if I was at home and I again said no.... so he finally asked me where I was, I told him I was in hospital. So he asked me if I had a doctor's appointment and I again said no.... LOL. When he asked me what was going on.... I told him that doctor had told us that we were having the baby that day he panicked. He asked me if everything was ok and my labor pains had increased by then so I said a feeble yes. He then asked me a couple more questions and told me that since he was going to Delhi I'd need to call my mom back. He called mom and then called me back saying that I just need to repeat the word 'JAMBLA' during labor. That'd help me with my delivery and also asked me to call mom back.

Dinesh then called up at Gurgaon and said that we were having a baby that day..... everyone panicked since it was way before my due date .

A half an hour later nurse came in to check me & said I was 4.5 cm dilated and was doing pretty good. She also said that I'd be getting the epidural now. The anesthesiologist would be there in half an hour.

The anesthesiologist came in and gave me the epidural..... WOW!!! It worked wonders and after that I talked to everyone family in Gurgaon, Dehradun, sister who was in Singapore everyone. I told them not to worry since I had taken epidural I was not feeling anything and was pretty much normal. Talked to everyone.

Dinesh had gone home once for some time to take shower and on the way back got me the season of Monk. I loved the serial and he got it so that I can watch it peacefully.

I was so thirsty that I asked for water and nurse finally agreed me to give ice chips. I didn’t say no although I don’t prefer ice in my water but my lips were all chapped from being thirsty so I readily agreed. I just wanted to drink something…. I was too hungry n thirsty. As soon as I got the ice chips I waited for them to melt down a little. As soon as I saw water I gulped it. Was just looking at the glass to have water. Dinesh kept an eye on me so that I don’t have a lot of water since the nurse had said that having a lot of water might cause me to throw up but I was thirsty. He’d ask me to have very little at a time. I’d say yes and after sometime would again take a big gulp. Asked for water twice or thrice till I was ok. Somewhere nurse had seen me having water and told me not to drink a whole lot. I said ok. She later asked me if I was feeling ok or having nausea. I said I was felling good after having water, so she told us that I could drink water if I am feeling good and to stop if I feel nausea. I was just happy but as soon as I felt that I can throw up I stopped.

At around 4 they told me I was all the way dilated and now needed to push to bring my little angel into this world. I pushed and pushed. The nurses were helping me. The doctor came in at around 4:45. I was so glad to see her. She asked me to push and I was trying hard to push…. The doctor was continuously observing me and was in room with us helping me out. The nurses, Dinesh every one was there. I was pushing and finally doctor told me she could see the head full of hair I need to push just a little more to have him with us in person…. I was so happy and started pushing again with more enthusiasm than before. But then Devom is Devom… the naughty one… he turned again. Doctor told me that Devom had turned sideways so I had to push harder. She wanted me to push before doing anything. I pushed for some more time since I did not want doctor to use forceps or vacuum on my child. Finally doctor told me that she’d have to use vacuum a little to get Devom out… I was scared and told her “NO! I don’t want vacuum to be used on my child” Doctor said J ‘Kiddo don’t worry nothing will happen. We will use it only a little since he has turned sideways’. Dinesh asked her if that was the best way ad when she said yes he asked them to go ahead. It was a little painful to have vacuum inside me but she finally brought Devom into this world at 5:18 PM…. I was so happy to see him. He was crying…. The nurse took him for cleaning.

When she was done I asked her if I can hold him and she smiled back and gave him to me. GOD!!! That was such a beautiful moment. He was so tiny. He was all pink & white. I kissed him, had him in my arms for some time and then nurse asked Dinesh to hold him while they did a few other things…. I was so happy that Dinesh was asked to hold him and he was holding him perfectly… he was a little scared though! Doctor sewed me up and then we were told that I’d be moved to 8th floor (the postpartum room) At around 8 we were moved downstairs. Dinesh later asked me if I wanted to have food and I was all in for it. Had been hungry for almost 24 hours now.

I knew that I should not be having any heavy kinda things not even the beans or the chick peas but I forgot everything. We were in hospital in States and I was a vegetarian so I could not have asked for chapatti or something and I knew my only option was Mexican food which had beans. We ordered Bean Enchiladas soup and garlic bread for the two of us. We had it, it was good food…..

Tuesday, January 27, 2009

When Devom entered our lives......

I always loved kids but then I also wanted to give sometime to my marriage before having a kid. Both of us decided on our very first night together that we won't plan for a baby for the next three years. We both agreed on the decision.

So 3.5 year later we were ready for the kid. Then I got pregnant in mid December..... Luckily we did not have to wait for long after deciding that it was the right time for us to have kid.

8 months and a week later Devom came into our lives.....on Aug 26, 2008 at 5:18 PM